Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Christmas 2012

It seems fitting that I'm writing about Christmas on New Years Day, because my last post was in October.

Maybe one of my New Years Resolutions should be to keep this space updated a little more. I love looking back and I really need to make it more of a priority...especially since we plan on expanding our family at some point (2013?).

Christmas was a whirlwind. I had to work Christmas Eve, but we started celebrating that night. In fact, Liv was so tired that mama woke up at 6am and waited around for 2 hours until Liv and Daddy woke up! It was nice to relax and talk with my mom and sister before the gift opening started.

We skyped with my mom while we opened present. Liv was so excited and actually kept up a decent pace of opening present. I have to say three is the best year yet for Christmas. Liv understood what was going on and really enjoyed herself. We had so much fun with her.

I got Pat a few gifts, one being a wedding band. He hasn't worn one since we got married, so it might take some adjusting. He keeps taking it off because it's a bit big....I told him that I don't think he knows how this wedding band thing works :).

Pat outdid me, of course. He bought me a car! I needed one, but was pleasantly surprised that he went to the trouble of picking it out and purchasing it without my help. It's a 2012 Ford Fusion and I've never driven a car this new so it makes me a bit nervous, but it's also really nice!

I have an overload of pictures...my family can stop complaining about my slacking...for awhile anyways.

Liv at my work Christmas Party

Liv's Christmas Concert

They sang "Happy Snowflake to you" and blew their handmade snowflakes at the end :)

Christmas Eve Family Party....Liv work those reindeer ears all day.

Christmas Morning!

Bringing Daddy his presents....Lily hoping that there is something for her in there!

Mean Old Auntie making Jaxon try on a princess dress :).

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Sweet and Sour

Hello Strangers. Between working, raising a crazy 3 year old, and the husband's random trips out of town....I have seriously put updating my blog on the back burner. I was a little upset with myself when I realized that I didn't even post about Liv's 3rd birthday. It's funny how I used to celebrate monthly on the blog, so I am going to start off writing again with a post about Liv and what she's up to.

Liv being a "spirited" child still holds true. She challenges me every day. With her challenges and the ferocity that she holds her ideas with, she also loves me with. Sometimes I call her my little sour patch kid...sometimes she's sweet and sometimes she's sour, but when she's sweet it wipes away all the sour things she does....I also happen to enjoy sour candies :).

She still loves "school" and it's great to see her making friends. When she started daycare she didn't really have much interest in the other kids. Fast forward to her moving into the "big kids" classroom and she "talks" to her friends all the time...in the bathtub, at bedtime....she loves pretending they are standing right next to her.

She has also found a shyness that really surprises me. Maybe it comes with age and knowing what is appropriate and not appropriate, but if she is introduced into a setting where there is new people or things, she needs some time to warm up. It doesn't usually take long and I won't complain about the snuggles I receive while she warms up.

Her teachers at school continue to surprise me with their updates. They have been known to tell me that Liv is very gentle with others, cooperative, and a "neat" eater. I would love to see Liv display some of this at home, but I guess if I have to take one or the other, I'll take her behaving at school.

We just celebrated Canadian Thanksgiving and are getting ready for the approaching American Thanksgiving. Dani is coming to visit and will be here to celebrate with us. Liv is very excited and god forbid Auntie Dani goes to visit my mom, because the sheer mention of Auntie Dani seeing someone else besides her brings her to tears.

I have a few pictures to share and I will try to be a little more diligent about my updates.

See. Sour.


Tickle Torture has been known to bring out the sweet....


And then it's mama's turn to bring the Sour.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Liv's Room Re-Do

My goal when Liv was in Michigan was to plan her 3rd birthday party and re-decorate her bedroom. I had bought most of the furniture for Liv's room from Value Village and it didn't all go together. I love Value Village, but I wanted it to be a bit more cohesive and organized.

I bought most of the new things for Liv's room at Ikea. I looked a lot online and planned what I was going to buy before I went. I tend to walk around in a daze when I'm at Ikea, so I needed a plan.

It doesn't necessarily have a theme. I wanted it to be a bit whimsical and girly, but still look like it was a little girl's room.

Here's how it turned out.

I really liked moving this dresser, which was a value village find and could use a re-paint, to the end of Liv's bed. The thing I love most about it is the shelves on both sides of the drawers.

This picture wall has always been there....I missed a picture of the floor poof I made awhile back. I will have to take another picture.

very busy on top of that dresser...

I'm finally not ashamed to show Liv's closet!! I did some major organizing and moved this storage bin in the closet and it really helped. Also the shoe organizer was a life safer.

Monday, August 13, 2012


Debris - the remains of anything broken down or destroyed; ruins; rubble.

There are moments that literally stop me cold and I get lost in a thought or a moment of what used to be. I'm sometimes successful at pulling myself out of the rubble and other times it takes me awhile longer to climb out.

These moments could be brought on by a song on the radio. Or by a bad day/week/month and thinking and over-thinking it because that's what I do. They are brought on with my interactions with friends, family, and Liv.

It can start out as a memory...a great memory with Shannon, that I think about so hard and in that moment, I really think if I pick up my phone and call her...she will answer.

Or it can be something that I'm dealing with and I wonder what she would think about how I responded  to the situation and what she thought I should do.

It's a strange thing to deal with...all the debris that is left over after the death of somebody who meant so much to you. I'm not the only person that is damaged and in need of repair. I find comfort with some people and lose it with others. It's not that I judge the way they deal...I just can't cope that way and therefore remove myself from the hurt.

Everyone deals with death differently. There is no right or wrong, no black or white solution...there is just pure survival.

The funny thing about debris is that it inflicts a lot of pain. There was a lot of damage done and many scars that are so fresh it's hard to forget. Denial is a strong tool for survival, but when does it catch up with you? When you leave pain untreated, how long does it take to infect you?

I am by no way saying that I am never happy. I am, and I think about Shannon during good times as well...I would just like to know...When does it get better? I want to be able to reminisce without being swallowed back into the ruins.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

winding down

My absence is totally due to the fact that I am trying to adjust to my new lifestyle as a working mom. It is a huge change, but one I am really loving. I am busy and I love having a routine.

Ummm.....Liv turned 3. Remember back when I had a blog post celebrating every month? Well, I am a failure. However, I did not fail in delivering her a superhero party that she requested. And when you think about it, that's what is really important.

We've had an interesting summer. Liv was in Michigan with my family for three weeks! It was very strange to say the least. It is something that will be an annual occurrence and Liv really enjoyed herself. My family loved having her there too. Pat and I had some quality time together too...probably more than we needed, but like I said...good for all. My mom flew in with her two weeks ago and stayed for six days. It was nice to have her here. She has never visited before and I liked having her in my new home and I thought she fit in nicely. Now I need to convince her to move here and be my live in nanny.

I am going to keep this short...don't want to overwhelm anybody with too many details.

Liv on her 3rd Birthday....Spiderman!

another from my sister's photo session with Liv.


Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Back to Reality

Not that I left reality for very long. I arrived back in Calgary on Monday and since the moment I left on Thursday until right now, it's been a whirlwind. I was SO busy while I was home, I definitely missed seeing some important people and it gives me anxiety about when I'll get to see them next, but that's more reason for me to save up to get back for Christmas!

Ashley and Nate's wedding was beautiful. There ceremony was on Lake Superior and everything was absolutely stunning and perfect. I was a bit stressed during the ceremony because Dani and I had readings and Liv was being a terror, throwing sand at me and sticking her face in the sand....she's wild. She was also a tasmanian devil at the reception, but she made a slightly early exit and we all got to let our hair down and enjoy some beverages and dancing.

Liv is with my parents until the 30th. I feel like a horrible mother, BUT I am doing this for my daughter and my family. They only get to see her for a limited amount of time and my mom and I have been talking about this for awhile. My mom is going to fly back with her and stay a week too, which is so exciting because she hasn't been to visit yet. I am going to enjoy the stampede, some alone time with my husband...and busy myself with planning Liv's 3rd birthday party and re-doing her room for her return. Starting pinterest board now...

I have a modge podge of pictures to document our time in Michigan, so bear with me...I lost my camera a few weeks ago and stole all of these off of facebook.

Dani took some pictures of Liv in a feather headband she made for her...this is the first she's posted....how cute! It makes me miss her that much more. That face is SO her! Here is the link to my sister's website!

Jillian, Me, Andrea, Ashley (the bride, obv.), and my Twinnie

Dani, Me, and Bikey at the rehearsal

This pictures deserves an explanation...When we were younger we played on a bunch of gus macker/red hacker teams together and our team name was Charlie Angels, but lets be clear...it was based on the classic television show and wayy before the movie ;)

wedding reception.

Andrea didn't want to be left out :)

This is Lea, Ashley's photographer, my friend and she was also my photographer. Liv has not seen her since my wedding but as soon as she saw her she was obsessed with Lea. I had to tow her away on multiple occasions because she was trying to distract poor Lea. Lea...I hope this is ok that I posted this. Lea is amazing and has a photography business called Vienna Glenn Photography. Here is the link to her blog too.

twinny. Can you tell which one is which?

There was another set of twins there, our edmontonian friends, Kathy and Tina :).

Dani, Tara, Me, and Ashley

posing with auntie dani...how cute is her outfit?

My Mom (gaga) and Liv....high on life, or sugar.

Monday, July 2, 2012


Life has been crazyyy. We are just ending the long weekend (yay canada day!) and I don't even know how it went by so fast. Well....I have an idea, Liv was in a wedding and that took up our Friday night and all day/night on Saturday. It was fun though and Liv did great. Apparently it was too much fun because my camera with all the evidence of how cute Liv was is missing. I'm trying to be hopeful that it will turn up, but if it doesn't, I've decided I'm not getting another snap and shoot, I'll be upgrading to an iphone! 

We leave on Thursday for Michigan. I am my normal anxious self and started packing today. I can't help myself, I will make a few lists and be obsessive about getting it all done. Then I'll wake up at 3am and worry myself until our flight at 6am. I will be exhausted by the time we actually arrive, but it will be worth it to celebrate Ashley and Nate's wedding! Also, cross your fingers that Liv doesn't puke on me again....OR if she does, I catch it in the handy puke bag (gag).

I have wanted to update, but I have felt so overwhelmed ad my thoughts tend to jump all over the place when that happens. I am hoping that in a few months I'll be into the swing of things and feel a little more in control of my life. 

I don't want to complain though, because so far, I really like my job! I get to start training for my actual position tomorrow and I'm looking forward to that. I have a lot to learn to be able to take over the department by October-ish. 

I will update during or after my Michigan trip...I hope it's not a puke story again, even though they are funny after, during is a nightmare. I think I have PTSD from all of these puking incidents ha! I will also make my sister take pictures for me and I'll steal them, I'm annoying like that.